I am not very good at writing, especially when it comes to being eloquent or creative. I've been putting this post off for a while now because I just don't know how to put my feelings and the events of the past weeks into words. I have read several posts from family members and they have done such a wonderful job and it makes me feel inadequate.
My mom went into the hospital about two weeks ago for what we thought would be a simple procedure to drain some fluid off her left lung. After many days of tests, waiting, more tests and more tortuous waiting the doctors told us that Mom has cancer. It is called mesothelioma and the prognosis is not what I had hoped for. We have known so many people lately that have been fighting cancer and so I thought--"It's okay--we'll fight this and win". We are going to fight this but winning has taken on a new meaning. The oncologist said to plan on one year. This was quite a shock, but as we have prayed and fasted, I have felt such peace and a deeper love and appreciation for my mom. She is such an amazing person. All who know her can see right away what an angel she is-- always willing to do whatever is needed, even at the expense of her own needs.
Our family has felt such an outpouring of love and support everywhere we turn. It is testimony to the greatness of our sweet Mom. There have been so many friends, family, co-workers, friends from church, etc--each with a genuine love and concern for Mom. I am so grateful to have a knowledge of the plan of salvation, to know that I have a Savior who loves and brings comfort, even (and especially) at the hardest of times. I am grateful for the priesthood power that binds us together as an eternal family. I have always been so grateful that we have such a close family. They are my truest friends and my greatest strength and we owe it all to our dear mother. There have been little miracles already and tender mercies that give us strength and help us to know that our Heavenly Father is very aware and that he loves us. I know that we have trials to strengthen us and increase our faith--this will definitely be one that has already (and will continue) to help me to rely more on the Lord and to increase my faith. I just want to express my gratitude for all the help, love and support we have received as a family--it is truly amazing and we are forever grateful!
My mom went into the hospital about two weeks ago for what we thought would be a simple procedure to drain some fluid off her left lung. After many days of tests, waiting, more tests and more tortuous waiting the doctors told us that Mom has cancer. It is called mesothelioma and the prognosis is not what I had hoped for. We have known so many people lately that have been fighting cancer and so I thought--"It's okay--we'll fight this and win". We are going to fight this but winning has taken on a new meaning. The oncologist said to plan on one year. This was quite a shock, but as we have prayed and fasted, I have felt such peace and a deeper love and appreciation for my mom. She is such an amazing person. All who know her can see right away what an angel she is-- always willing to do whatever is needed, even at the expense of her own needs.
Our family has felt such an outpouring of love and support everywhere we turn. It is testimony to the greatness of our sweet Mom. There have been so many friends, family, co-workers, friends from church, etc--each with a genuine love and concern for Mom. I am so grateful to have a knowledge of the plan of salvation, to know that I have a Savior who loves and brings comfort, even (and especially) at the hardest of times. I am grateful for the priesthood power that binds us together as an eternal family. I have always been so grateful that we have such a close family. They are my truest friends and my greatest strength and we owe it all to our dear mother. There have been little miracles already and tender mercies that give us strength and help us to know that our Heavenly Father is very aware and that he loves us. I know that we have trials to strengthen us and increase our faith--this will definitely be one that has already (and will continue) to help me to rely more on the Lord and to increase my faith. I just want to express my gratitude for all the help, love and support we have received as a family--it is truly amazing and we are forever grateful!
2 comments:
Thanks for sharing your heart, Heidi. I know how many tears were probably shed writing this - cuz I shed a number just reading it! I love you so much and wish ... oh, for so many things that only the Lord knows about in our secret prayers.
Just wanted you to know that I stopped by your little corner of the blogging world... If there is anything you need, please let me know! Without kids we can be pretty flexible if you have any last minute needs...
Alicia Goldman
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